Have you ever stumbled upon an article or blog post that echoed every hidden thought or sentiment you longed to share with your peers? In that moment, did you feel the urge to post it on social media without fear of being found out or receiving negative responses? Well, this happened to me a few… Continue reading Finding the Words
October ’98 Dear Teri — You’re about to turn 13 without your best friends . . . Much to your dismay, all three of them transferred to another school — a better school just outside the neighborhood. You were given the same opportunity; however, you refused it . . . thinking it unjust for those… Continue reading This Is 31, Part 2
Dear readers — When I created this series, I didn’t know what I would be getting myself into by revisiting the tender age of thirteen. Frankly, I think I’ve spent most of my adult life trying to erase all memories from that time, but with the help of my siblings, I’m reconnecting the dots and… Continue reading This Is 31, Part 1
In some instances, flying off the radar is necessary. Whether you’re settling into a new city, tending to family, or regrouping after a season of overload, for the most part, being MIA is justified. Even so, I’ve come to realize that there’s a fine line between taking time away out of necessity and taking time… Continue reading Off the Radar
You see this car? This car is a symbol of change and recovery. Change // Last fall, I slowly, but surely, relinquished my car-free lifestyle; and as I prepared to drive this car off the lot, the planner(d) in me took her last breath and died. (For everyday folks, my wording may be a bit… Continue reading Recovery on Wheels
Like most people, I’m guilty of looking for love in all the wrong places.* In most cases, however, I’m guilty of looking for some version of love — the kind that makes sense to me and me alone… that operates on my terms and exists to serve my wants rather than my needs. It’s a dangerous combination, really — but my primitive mind (and the hidden desires of my heart, for that matter) won’t allow me to escape it. As a result, I fall victim to both seen and unforeseen consequences and wallow in regret more than I care to admit.
Bear in mind that the sting of disappointment from a flawed and failed love hurts all the same (at least in my book), so the source is of little importance here. Even so, I’m continually reminded that the remedy is not out of reach.
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” – Psalm 73:26
Weary and Wandering
As a believer, I am well aware that my own understanding of love — and that of the world around me — pales in comparison to the love of Jesus Christ. His loves sees me and my frailty and works to refine me for greater purposes — ones that my limited imagination can only fathom once those purposes are accomplished. That’s the kind of love I’m in need of most. Nevertheless, when my heart grows weary and begins to wander, I easily forget about this love and its implications; and left to my own devices, I find it hard to trust. As of late, this has certainly been the case, and it’s taking me a lot longer to find my way back.
Thankfully, helpful reminders — like this beautiful poem written by a member of my church community — resurface from my browsing history and hit me with much-needed words of truth. My hope is that it does the same for you today.
“What if there’s a love so focused, so obsessed – that it would sacrifice itself to give you what’s best?” – Connor Frizzelle
*If you’re familiar with that lyric, it’ll stop playing in your head shortly.
On April 15, I had a long-awaited, in-person interview for a position I’m truly excited about; however, about a week prior to that, I had convinced myself that I would not come out on top. This was largely due to the fact that someone was kind enough to burst my little bubble of hope by… Continue reading Get Coached